Holiday Reflections, Nostalgic Fashion, and Tackling Procrastination

As the frost of the holiday season thaws, I find myself reflecting on the joys and challenges that come with it, all while drawing inspiration from the late Kobe Bryant's "Mamba Mentality."
 
  Battling seasonal blues is no easy feat, but this year I discovered an unexpected delight in the Christmas chaos and the warmth that proactive mental health care can provide to family gatherings. The magic of the holidays truly hit home as I watched my son's heartwarming reaction to unwrapping his dream present on Christmas morning—a moment that captures the essence of the season's enchantment.
 
 Transitioning from festive revelry to the nitty-gritty of clean-up, I let you in on a genius organizational hack: a garage turned holiday storage haven. 
 
 There's nothing quite like the thrill in children's eyes when the holidays are upon us, and my son Kj's excitement was a reminder of that pure joy. 
 
 In this episode, we not only recount those precious family anecdotes but also nostalgic evolution of fashion and its influence on our personal identity and style. And not to be overlooked, I beam with pride as I talk about my son's academic achievements, knowing full well that the balance between mischief and education is what helps him thrive.
 
 We also tackle the mental gymnastics that can help anyone overcome procrastination, offering a psychological toolkit to help you face down those daunting tasks. It's an episode brimming with heartfelt stories, wisdom, and growth, leaving you inspired to step into the new year with confidence and style.

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Chapters

• 0:32 Christmas Celebrations and Family Moments
• 12:23 Advice on Kids' Fashion Choices
• 21:48 Father and Son Fashion Advice
• 29:48 Overcoming Procrastination and Time Management
• 35:04 Productivity Hacks to Overcome Procrastination

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:32

Thank you for tuning in to permission to speak freely. Podcast, first episode of 20 24. Mamba mentality Kobe, kobe, but we're a Mamba mentality. So tell me, lalo, it's been a minute man, how are you feeling this 2024? I'm feeling good, man. I'm feeling generally good. I could be better and I will be better. I was.

Speaker 1: 1:05

I was telling my wife a few days ago, about a week ago, as much as we talked about like having that seasonal depression or myself being kind of a grinch around the Christmas holiday, I was having a little like a little Christmas regression. Like my tree is still up Because I, you know, I'm fine now, but like the kids and shit, opening the gifts in the morning and just having that, you know like the work schedules a little different, more so celebrating and you know saying then the new year hit and it's kind of like back to our regular schedule programs. Oh fuck, what happens to the lights, the lights with the sweaters and shit? You know, sam, it's just different, you know. So I was having a little, a little Christmas regression, if that's the right term for that, just what I decided to call it. Like man, I can't wait for next Christmas, which is very odd for me because I mean I can't wait to do this shit. Oh, you know, sam, can't wait to do this shit. Over my wife and I, we didn't break the bank too much so it really didn't feel like I fuck, I was other shit to do that.

Speaker 1: 2:19

But, um, but generally good man, starting off, the 2024 strong man, how about yourself, man, 20 Kobe. Well, it sounds like with you, real quick, the Grinch heart, it grew like a three times large. Got me, man, they got me, hey, man. But that's a beautiful thing that you was able to recognize that with yourself. Not be a Grinch. Yeah, really get, really show a level of I guess the word I'll call it is. You were very proactive to yourself. Yeah for sure, got ahead of it before you had to put the fire out and, yeah, which is which goes towards, if you remember, man with goes towards a quarter of ours man, that we generally live by, and it's one of them is protect the queen at all costs, even from yourself at times, and what you did was protect your family from yourself and no one like hey, you legitimately need to cut it shut Christmas.

Speaker 1: 3:30

Yeah, beat the fuck out that Christmas tree. You know what I'm saying? I almost smacked it over a couple of times early December, like I'm just still on this one Fuck the tree is not going to be over and pick it up before the girl see. And it remind me we was kids. It's the first time. First or second few times I say the first few times my wife, nessa, had met my mother. So my mother, nessa, came over to my mother house you stand on Concordia and my mother we had all these gifts up on the there, like my siblings were still living there and everything. So they had the gifts for the family, each other and stuff up under there.

Speaker 1: 4:08

And it was my mama was just mad at whatever I know when you go with it. I was there and you were. You been around a lot of time. I've been around a minute. It was some shit for me under that tree, for real. That's where I get the idea from.

Speaker 1: 4:20

Yeah, it was like hey man, she just got so mad and he started trying to book the tree. I'll be spiking in the month so I can get it man. I get it on like different people got different reasons for sure, hey man, hey man, I ain't really trippin on the house. Yeah, definitely, it was like, and I decided every Christmas maybe next year I'm going to be I'm revert back and fuck Christmas. You know what I'm saying. I guess it depends on where I am in the mental space, what's going on, but I'll tell you what man that morning. Just you know. We know why we celebrate Christmas, but you know, when it comes down to Christmas morning, like it's for them, kids For sure, you know what I'm saying. And at the end, man seeing all of them, you know, opening their gifts and being excited, you know what I mean. And my son, man low here, we saved his big gift for last on purpose, because we knew he was going to have a shit when he saw this. Fuck it man. So while he had some stuff to open and got some shoes, clothes, all this cooler game, that's what's up. Thanks dad, thanks grandma. And while his other siblings are opening things, I can see it in his eyes kind of like he, kind of like uh, like from the color purple, anything for me he's got like, anything else for me, that's all mine. You got like nine things. I knew exactly when I gave him that one, the last one, like oh no.

Speaker 1: 5:52

As soon as he ripped back that first strip of paper. He saw the logo, my man ran out of the room, came back, my boy man, he, he a crier like his pops, like I cry like a motherfucker. He didn't want to fight and choke shit out of somebody. You know what I'm saying. It depends on the situation. But he get emotional because he got this thing that it's fucking meta quest Oculus heads. That's what the fuck he been wanting. Oh yeah, it's a big time. Yeah, yeah, that's what he wanted, man, the shit. I'll tell you about it. But, uh, but he ain't even finished opening the rest of the paper, man, he just went crazy, oh my gosh, and like that was his, his kid, like, oh man, like these shoes, nice, but they got this one. The fuck I really want, got the Oculus for show man.

Speaker 1: 6:40

So he, he cried, he fucking making me cry. Give me a big old. I call it a miles my rallies. Huh, you know the way miles around the hug is pops in the movie and shit. He gave me a big miles my rallies, huh, man, and it's like up. That that's. That's. That's why we here, man, that's what Christmas about, man. You know, some kids just enjoying opening the yeah, it's dope man, shit, I spent all morning being a dad making sure the paper and shit, putting shit together.

Speaker 1: 7:10

We got, we got some more triple A batteries. Yeah, that need double level to triple A. I need full triple A. Hey, pick up all this paper, put that in that box, all the paper going this box. I didn't open up my shit to like 3 pm Word Word Like where, just forgot, like just so immersed in being a dad, sorry, I got my gift just in seeing that they enjoy their day Christmas man, so wanted to share that with y'all Freedom speakers. You're getting to hear fathers real life dads like real life fathers at work handling shit within the household for the kids.

Speaker 1: 7:49

Okay, this isn't. We came by the house, dropped off some stuff. We put on matching pajamas for one day for the year. This, this, this is not. It's not that y'all we, we, not that you know what I'm saying. This this man really went into the garage and got his screwdriver. Yeah, I had to.

Speaker 1: 8:08

Phillips flatheads Sometimes get the little hex head toys. Sometimes get the little leap frog joint. Oh, my damn, motherfucker, the overland. Who, who's stealing this shit? Who hurt leap frog? We taking them niggas? I don't, bro, I'm stealing that shit. We at that place now where it's like, damn, I gotta go, I gotta get to the metric system, hands and shit for these toys and shit, but I need an Allen wrench. But it's, it's, it's all love, man, it's all love. So on our end I'm gonna answer your question, man, because kind of just dug in with you a little bit like, hey, man, I want to be immersed in what really went on over there.

Speaker 1: 8:45

So, with us, man, we actually I love that my wife loves Christmas and I love that I get to be all the different things that I am within my side of the family, her side of the family, and us blending our families. For years, yeah, and this year her family pretty much was the family that was in there like dominating the household, and I and I love it and I and what I mean I love it is they are in there dominating, going, they're the majority family there. They're the ones in there that are that's what the kids, they're the ones in there that's dancing, they're the ones in there just doing a lot of beautiful things, man, and I thought I think that was cool and I get to be the man in there and I get to love how my wife gets to decorate. Remember we actually got a, so we packing up holiday stuff and we it looked like somebody got put out because of how much stuff is in there. Like I went to Home Depot, shout out to Home Depot. I went to Home Depot and I got a metal racking set five tier metal racking set just to be able to help organize this stuff. Okay, this claimer, this is not a negative. I really like how my garage look. I'm going to take a picture and put it on social media and show you You're going to be like I can do one more of these. However, the primary reason it was used is to help organize most of her decor for decorating for the holiday. Remember she got she had 14, 15 trees. Last time I checked A lot of those are tucked away on that, on that metal racking in the garage, but it's about eight or nine trees lingering in the house, small enough to fit probably in a large two by three tote maybe and I'm only learning the sizes of measurements and I know a lot of them go by gallons too. Yeah, because I've been having a look and see and readjust the measurements of how I'm putting this, putting this shelf together. We're going to get the biggest ones on the bottom. Yeah, put these light shit up the top because if it falls it's going to fuck you up. Yeah, with no heavy shit in the top stock, but just one of those of helping my baby organize.

Speaker 1: 11:03

What I get to see like this is where my regression with Christmas comes in, because I love kicking it during the holidays. I'm a party animal, I'm a family person. I love to kick it. Then you got clean it, but I do not like to clean up. Yeah, the fucking, the heavy clean, the leftover, like I. I, I as an adult do not like cleaning anymore as a grown up than I did as a kid. Yeah, I graduated from cleaning up, bro, I know how to do that. Like so, when I have to really clean up After like some cleanup, cleanup. It made me sit back and readjust and think about everything that I already do. I'm a man. I pay for this shit. I help set up. I paid for the house, my own security. I'm about to sweep like a man. What the fuck hold up? I'm like I'm not sweeping, I take the trash out. I, you know that type, but I'm not about to sweep my, but I Take out the trash with the shit in it, though, what is in there, but it's. It's one of those man. So my regression would it come? So during the whole event, where I'm up, I'm live, I'm party and I'm having fun, go check out our social medias at permission.

Speaker 1: 12:23

The number two underscores speak freely podcast. I was able to have fun with the family, get the drink, get to Laugh. The kids was able to open their gifts. Kaja got pretty much everything that he wanted, everything that he posted on social media, on our Facebook and Instagram page. He got everything on there except, think, one or two things. But the man didn't need a want for nothing. For real. This was shit. This was all a want list. He get to wear the white one, so, so he got was on. So tell him the story that freedom speakers. Have you ever had your moment where you got your fresh white kicks? You got you some, and I come from an air Okay where you got you a fresh, bright, white, fair pair of bricks, air Force one.

Speaker 1: 13:23

Some low tops of me or hot tops, depending on where you was at there was started off me, but the Mears was the. You couldn't go wrong with the means. Low top only became real fly when soja boy came and add the colors and stuff At least for my I was in the sixth grade. No, I had my first pair of lows in the sixth grade. I was in the night for 10. So what went out? Yet, those boy with long. And I'm in the sixth grade. He's so about now. That's too early, that's too so there, yeah, so in 2003, 2004, the meds was, was in.

Speaker 1: 14:04

Yeah, the low tops became Hot. When that win them, lean with it, rock with it, you think about baby. You think about baby the night, oh, yeah, so to wear the low top, baby, that's when they became popular. But when you had a pair of all-white bricks, that was low top, it was like the church, something like what, if you could, you could pass because the problem. That became popular when niggas was wearing a blazer with the Stripe shirt and the collar shirt, jeans, yeah, you were Wearing pro models hold, hold. That was hold, outfit, hold and usher. Yeah, then they Stupid as big as belt, buckle pants and I was like seventh grade. So, men, my son, he had his face. Now I remember going through my face and get my new clothes after income tax cleared for the family. Yeah, I knew Chris, most of the time. That's when most black families at least the air I grew up in, as when you usually got New shit is when your parents could afford to just be like all right, you got a little extra, get you one or two little things.

Speaker 1: 15:20

So it's my son's turn to sit in this seat now, man. So and on his Christmas list he asked for a couple Nike fits. He wanted a couple of Nike tech outfits and he wanted to pair all white bricks. He wanted to shoot other. I think I'm up here, george, but just tighten up his outfit is get his game a little bit so he can go to school and feel good along with look good, and he makes.

Speaker 1: 15:48

He's an AB student. That's one of the things I always want to say. Like he's an AB student man, he he disrupt as much as he learned. So it kind of balances out to me as a parent, but I get it. So the day after Christmas he wants to go to the park, fresh fly Fitted from head to toe. Oh, my mom, oh my god, I look like man, I look good. He was gonna wear that shit to take the garbage out, not, not a nigga want to run airs. I'm gonna go outside first. It's only one day like that. I'm not an outside person.

Speaker 1: 16:35

Now he got a brother, nigga. Look handsome, all black, nice, as Nike, nike tech. And nigga didn't like just regular Nike, it had to be Nike tech. Okay, that's all the nays at the Apple store. Yeah, I'm like bro, nike, y'all niggas better be in shape with all these sweatsuits on man, yeah, but, and Norfolk, I'm like okay. Then I just got in.

Speaker 1: 17:04

He was time to get him some new kicks. Man got him to all white bricks, got him Another pair of Jordans, some mid-tops like blue and black George, but something that he likes them style, and he kind of being trying to be not shillon. Well, like that you don't have to spend all his money. I'm like I fucking know. Thanks for reminding me, sir. However, I do want you to look good, man. This is where you don't and this is one of the things I try to note to especially him right now where he's learning money. That's not none of your concern. Right now, with your parents, I don't want you to feel no pressure about what mommy and daddy pockets are you that ain't. You should worry about your allowance. Thank you, that comes with chores. Yeah, you know, yo, yo pockets locus, something dirty, but I got dressed so we go back into.

Speaker 1: 17:52

He comes out the next day after Christmas. Keep in mind we live in Cleveland, ohio, freedom Speakers. It didn't really snow none this year, I was really snow. So this man goes out and, like fall weather, fly and handsome, looking lean as fuck with this fresh, crispy black ass, nike tech, with the all-white bricks, with the hood pulled over his head, and he come right to the garage. You look like Molly from Friday after, but he looking good. I'm proud in this moment of like he looking good.

Speaker 1: 18:25

He trying on his feet when he like we can, ready to go to the park, I don't need to. Hey man, I hear right there, buddy, what I do. So I'm like hey man, you can go to the park, most definitely man, but you, you can't, you can't wear that right now, and you should have just saw the look of this spare on his face. Oh, what a word is it? Look cool at the park. I would have where it look cool. I'm like hey, man, you got other stuff to look cool at the park, you ain't got to wear that. So just having to be a dad Because ultimately and he may hear this yeah, you can go to the park and look cool. However, just as much as you trying to look cool, putting on the fresh fruit with the all-white ones, like that, you're kind of a goofy as hell too. It's kind of like that ain't necessary man at all. So I don't know the kids get it yet.

Speaker 1: 19:24

When I had to be a dad and just protect him from being the coolest fool at the park, if you will, I had to give him a Remnant story of myself. Okay, once he changes outfit and put on something that was more, we were more easy for him to destroy like a man you could. That's cool, you could do that. That ain't no, no, no issue. I give him the story of when I was a kid, in middle school, platinum Fubu was the shit and my mother was able to get me a pair of Air Force ones white low top, mm-hmm, and a blue Platinum Fubu shirt fat-out, we're the dish. I wore Platinum off that motherfucker, till it became sterling silver and it wasn't a precious metal, no more. And that was not platinum, oh man. But it was my favorite shirt. It was my favorite shirt and I wore once or twice probably a week just on some like a man.

Speaker 1: 20:20

My wardrobe was based on what my parent can afford, like most kids. You know I'm saying my bad. I was. I wasn't the flyest guy, but I probably was smarter than most. I stand on that. Yeah, I knew that was smarter than most. Yeah, so we're really counts, really, man.

Speaker 1: 20:36

But that being said, when he came back out, he felt, you know, a little bit more at ease and I gave him a story of like, hey, when I was a kid, I got the platinum Fubu shirt and I kept wearing it and I kept wearing it and I kept wearing it because it Was my favorite shirt and I kept wearing it. Prematurely, I was in Washington, wasn't fly, no more. What I don't want, didn't want him to do and I explained to him is make that same mistake. I'm like man, you don't go back to school and said a seventh, eighth, whatever the date was, and this is the second day the year you want to be one. Even the second day, okay, okay, day after this, the day after you just snatch tags on it's the day after Christmas. I'm making sure I'm getting, I'm making sure I ain't putting it after New Year. So I'm like this is the day after Christmas. You fly. It's like the second day of break, yeah. So I'm like, hey, man, you wearing that today. You know it's gonna probably be washed one or two times before you get to school and then it's not gonna be as new. No, no, black ain't gonna be black and like it would, mm-hmm, it's not gonna be crisp, but I'm like you gonna go look good at the park for just a few people to see. Yeah, when you get to school, that's when you really that's, that's when you crack him.

Speaker 1: 21:48

So he kind of getting that, you know it make is making sense. He's feeling like, well, you right, okay, you right. So he was, I cannot. We're like the jacket around the house. He's like this what he just you know he's, I Don't want to simmer down his.

Speaker 1: 22:08

I'm giving him game like, okay, man, you got blue one. Yeah, you got the whole fit the jacket and the pants. I'm like you got a blue one, you got a red one, you got a black one. I'm like you got a cream. When I think of whatever, I'm like, hey, you got a different game member, a dad week. Oh, I'm a bird. You got four outfits which really like eight was, really could be like 10 or 12. You play right Every little a-lad one of them. Jackets go with everyone in the pants, everyone. Steve Harvey with the suit, yeah, but it's like hey, man, you can't mention match bro. So he feeling good now someone that when he couldn't, he couldn't wait to break the silence once he Was time for school. This is when I knew it was like a is my time. Okay.

Speaker 1: 22:56

So freedom speakers, when I walked into my son's room and I got a chance to just do my my prep work as a father Checking, make you straight, man, you're going back to school tomorrow. I got your haircut. Brush your teeth, man, get some in some pubes now. You got some deodorant on. My mom got you some cologne and some new drawers and stuff for Christmas, man, I'm like so. So now Let me see what you wearing. This. Now was the time, big dog. Yeah, that shit laid out on bed. Oh yeah, I figured I would wear this one like Monday with my white shoes. Thank you for showing me how to clean off my shoes. Rp John with spoon coordinate, baby. But I felt like it was my turn. I felt like I'm passing the torch. Yeah, he's showing me what he wearing Like.

Speaker 1: 23:51

He felt good about him, man. He got Monday through Thursday all mapped out and that's just the Nike tech. Yeah, wifey got him like some gap sweat okay, and Just meant Gift giving is like what she does. He still ain't ran out of outfits. No, I don't know, but I seen him with red twice. That's his color. I think it was a red with a red zipper, then it was a red or like a black zipper, cuz Tiki got even one.

Speaker 1: 24:19

They ain't gonna know. Yeah To them is key is not Kill them. The key got the tech. Go in the breakfast room with these. So you sure lay on purpose. So everybody's seeing when he walking, so bruh. So that's when I told him, like the man when he walked through, you come through, bruh. You got to be the first one at the bus stop, all right, or last, that's the dramatics, last one lay. So Just I felt good passing the torch. I showed him how to wipe because he did wear the Air Force is he wanted to wear them? So I'm like we had a rainy, misty Christmas season. I know he got the little mud on the bottom and it creeped up on the soul a little bit.

Speaker 1: 25:07

I know exactly gave him another story because he, mom, was like I was KJ washing shoestrings for his white bricks, his white shoes. I'm like, see, when I was a kid I Would have to, you know, take a mile wash and put them in some bleach, put them in some. There I might do one day. I Got hit. Then I will go to the dollars, though, and shoe strings was like cheap enough to steal, no conviction, no conviction. You know, just a Didn't gain a weight on me and you can't go back. It was fully stocked all the time. So we would go with still shoe strings, sometimes all white, or when the shoes started getting like you got to be careful with stealing white shoe, because if you put some fresh white shoe strings in some two month old white shoes, mm-hmm, you got a cool white.

Speaker 1: 26:04

So this led into we start doing the fat boy, oh shit strings with playing in the shoes, just to be like. I got the blue, got the blue with these laces, I got my Iceberg shirt, that, whatever you was, whatever was the iceberg, though with the card on jeans, yeah, the tass man man. But Make it what lever Avericks jacket, fucking fat form. They don't know it's doing it. Sean John, what rocker where? So I'm breaking down just like a. You know butters as boo? Yeah, we know. Like you were hikers, you had some. Yeah, I had a white Mr Allen 25, that's the same thing. What's the return policy on these bitches, man?

Speaker 1: 27:10

But just I felt good giving him the game, that's solid, showing him how to like watch the shoes, yeah, but just like it's, I need to watch my mother fucking shoes. Hey, bro, I used to be big on like washing my ones and shit. Like I legit I'm not exaggerating, bro like every day I was watching my mother one by my mother was good with one day. Look, he's like man, it's not fun, always got keep some fresh ones, like not a guy had even just for a minute. But I go home every day. I'm talking pull the laces out me, wash the tongue on the behind the tongue. You take them laces out and some of the time be clean Some dirty that's how you get them a little dirtlos March, yeah, and you got to make sure you put your laces in back like the same way.

Speaker 1: 27:54

You know, I'm saying like I remember watching the the last day in special the 98 bulls, and they was talking about how Michael Jordan made show his shoe strings was perfectly alive. Look, he's so particular about his shoes. Nigga, that was me and I ain't no Michael drill was doing that shit. I make. Show my shit, lacing my shit. Your greatness. Hey, we could do that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but Solid man, thanks for sharing that. Hey, that was dope. Hey, man, thank you that.

Speaker 1: 28:22

That that was like the highlight to me of my Christmas is just not only coaching, not, yeah, not only just the gift giving, because I, we do that all year round of just like a you growing here you go. It ain't a gift, is taking care of you. But him getting the on this on this particular day think how you want on holidays but just on this particular day he received what he won't. He got extra gang he, he learned some patience, mm-hmm, you know I'm saying and then killed them. For the first week and a half of school you still got three sweaters. He ain't rocked it, he got all the stuff he don't like that. He ain't worried. Put that title, kill him with the title neck, wait till it's cold. Why didn't make the shirt? But I did put December on there. I thought I think I put it too high, but I'm gonna make you another. Hey, you got any. You got any resolutions for the for 2024.

Speaker 1: 29:26

Yeah, yeah, yeah, man, one of the things that I truly want to do is actually stick to this. Man, this is very therapeutic to me. Oh, the pot. Permission to speak for you, for your, for our fans, man, for the listeners, for people who, um, who actually Get pissed with us when they see us in public hey, because we ain't put out no content. Thank y'all for holding us accountable, thank you, thank you.

Speaker 1: 29:48

So don't want to let y'all down, want to give you something to give you this audio crack. When I give you this, give you we ever to speak on behalf of you, for you, for ourselves. Boo-foo by us. Fuck, you shout out to how hot movie for that shit was just on other days. I love that movie, man, but you got to watch that movie and watch the commentary with Red Meff talking about they did on the DVD, on the DVD, but the kids didn't even know what Divotus was. Man, I told you I about the CDs, right, man? Oh, my goodness, I know that, not to mention the DVD, I can't. I can't remember time. Last time I seen one of my kids pop a disk in some, yeah, in popping this, no more. They open an apps, apps with streaming was live. That's it. It's so much that we lose, just not man. That's that's why I'm mad.

Speaker 1: 30:42

So, speaking to losing, that goes into another just resolution. Man of my own, hold myself accountable for the things that I want to do and not procrastinate. Yeah, losing time. Just I lost a lot of people in twenty twenty three. That meant something to me, for sure, and I buried myself in work and in crafts and in tasks, not to think about it, not to grieve, not to mourn. However, I pulled from their energy to keep going of how dare I am tired, in the prime of my life, when these people made it to the third and fourth quarter of theirs and I'm only in the second year, that's man that I, my ancestors, who didn't get a day off, who was possibly slaves or just had a really shitty boss and just needed it, took whatever because they needed a job. That's up to you. Know how dare I'm tired? Yeah, I could take a break, though Like, don't get me wrong, like I'm not too tired to do it, but like, hey, I need to be able to take as many breaks as necessary. However, I know of myself what would I? Procrastinate it?

Speaker 1: 31:54

And when you lose something is when you know how you gauge how much time in between you didn't really fucked off. Yeah, me seeing myself of like, hey, I've made a whole lot of marks, but when I get to look at all the other shit that still need to be done, it's like, hey, I could have done more and I found me beat myself up about that shit. When it's like other people around me to be like, oh, no, no, no, you already doing enough, yeah, doing more, but me still knowing my potential, I'm already riding this prom way. I'm just tapping into what my potential of? How much more can I be at this, like compartmentalizing different things. Like I could be better at not procrastinating. I could be better at my time management I'm already good at this shit, but it's like, how much better can I be for sure?

Speaker 1: 32:45

So let me ask you this what is what is trying to think of? How to say this? What do you learn from that? Like, what can you do? Let's just say next time to say, ok, hey, next time I'm going to do this to make sure. Like, where are you punching time?

Speaker 1: 33:04

So then, when it comes down to to it the way you like, ah, yeah, I did my thing, like what's the? What's the move? You have to get organized and disciplined with yourself. You have this have a vision of your end goal, of where you want to see yourself at. This is why you may see in TV shows or movies sitcoms that they'll put a picture of like a body and then like their face on it, like their goals. You had the Rocky joint. The Rocky joint, you had a mirror up. You had a mirror over Rocky's face. So when you look in the mirror, like you, you, you, the dying style, you the black style, yeah, yeah, yeah For sure. Some people might say that, but that was a mental. That's a mental thing for me because it really all starts in your mind. Man, that is everything that you see was an idea that somebody eventually made a decision and then stuck to it, yeah, for sure.

Speaker 1: 33:59

So Me knowing how I need to compartmentalize certain things for myself, just because I handle so much that the whole load can overwhelm me if I think about it in its entirety, Me just saying, ok, let me my for myself in the morning, my breakdown I get up between Three and five before is like a sweet spot. I'll do some work on my computer, I'll stretch, but I'll break down like four to four thirty. I'm gonna do this from four. Thirty to five. I'm gonna do that from five to six. I'm gonna do this from six to this. I'm gonna give my kids a blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Speaker 1: 34:34

But I kind of break it down so that it doesn't overwhelm me of knowing like I'm being. I'm being mentally drained by something I ain't even done yet. At the end of the day, yeah, and I will catch myself going and I will catch myself doing that, just thinking about everything, and I almost kind of get paralyzed. Yeah, that shit can't happen. And then I do nothing, yep, and that'd be like that mental exhaustion Like, if you know, you know, I'm gonna say some simple like cutting the grass or shoveling the snow.

Speaker 1: 35:04

You're doing something now, but as soon as something else is put on your plate, it's kind of like ah, it's like I wasn't even tired before this task was added to my list, but now just thinking about doing that shit is kind of like, fuck man, I just I want to sit down, I'm gonna sleep the trick that I use for that because I find myself doing that, knowing cutting the grass is one of them with the groundskeepers on our ship. Well, what mentally tricks me out of doing or getting into certain tasks is if there is a task that I know I need to do and I don't want to do it, I try to think of or look around at another task that's worse than that, that I still need to do, and it makes me say, like this task ain't that bad, I'd rather do this, that shit, then this one. Like, fuck that task, I'll do this one. So that helps me mentally really. Just unlike I still need to do it. It's just, man, I can't keep procrastinating the time because now I add interest and tax to it. It doesn't sit well for me, or who dependent on me, to do it.

Speaker 1: 36:08

Yeah, so beautifully said man. Beautifully said man. Freedom speakers, thank you for tuning in. We out.