Stress From Taxes/Weed Use/Addiction/PTSD

Join us as we follow a path less traveled. A path of resilience and courage marked by the personal struggles of Chief Ali. He takes us on a raw and emotional journey – from the depths of addiction, through financial hardships and the darkness of PTSD, to his triumphant emergence into the light. Hear firsthand, his battle with tax liens, losing clientele, and the struggle of managing finances, coupled with unhealthy coping mechanisms such as overeating and turning to weed as an outlet.

Chief's story is a testament to the human spirit's tenacity when faced with adversity. His self-awareness led him to tackle his issues and rise from the shadows into a brighter, healthier existence. This gripping narrative is an intimate exploration into the struggles of mental health, substance abuse, and the transformative journey to self-discovery and redemption. His unfiltered honesty and transparent storytelling is a powerful reminder that no matter how dark it gets, there is always a ray of light at the end of the tunnel. His fight is his testament, his story is our lesson, and his victory is our inspiration.

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Transcript

Speaker 1: 1:34

Literally can't function without it. It snickers who would choose we over food, or smoke, or cigarettes over food, or liquor over food. You know, yeah, wake it back as a person. So I'll take it man, as a person who listen, who smokes and I express like I just start, I'm 30, I mean 36. In August I'm gonna be smoking the last maybe four and a half five years. I wouldn't even say that probably, I just say that cuz I was vaping, I started with the late pens. Then I'm like but they would start cutting it. So I'm like, let me go ahead and just get the flower. So I still have to out the flower. The herb start rolling up with that and I preferred that.

Speaker 1: 2:18

But at a stressful time in business, I'm getting hit with tax lien after tax lien after tax lien for each quarter of shit. I it wasn't just one for the year was like honey, we hit you with this link for this quarter, that quarter, but 941 taxes. We hitting you for 940 taxes. We hitting you for all the shit that wasn't paying because the expenses were. The expenses were outweighing the income. Yeah, the expenses were outweighing the income and I wasn't in the position of a boss enough to manage the company bringing in the contracts, making sure we got budgets for everything. I'm just going to spend and spend and spending, not keeping track of what's coming in and what's coming out, nor was I making enough to make those honest payments that I needed to. That being said, when I got hit with them tax liens I wasn't. I'm losing clients left and right to no fault of our own, but just losing it put me in that mental place, place of life. Hey, I don't, I don't feel safe, I'm a hurt some. Somebody Working out doing push ups ain't enough. I felt like a what's? That salon song is like nigga, yeah. But it did not work, man, it just did not work. So I had to. I found that outlet of smoking weed and it was cheaper. Then they eat the diction I found out I had of just I would eat my feelings. I would just eat, eat. I I'll go to the donor store and get two bakers dozen and only a half a donut to make a home and we live like eight minutes away from the stuff. But I would just, homer Simpson, them bitch Back. I get some pizza, but I would just be my motion PCR take me, but I'll be eating my emotions. Bruh, just like fucked up mental. I had Self-diagnosed, never went to the doctor to say, hey, this is what you have, but for what we do in mental health.

Speaker 1: 4:27

I clearly had PTSD. I clearly had it. Smoking weed made me feel I Wouldn't feel. I could not feel nothing. I could not be remorseful for nothing I done. I couldn't apologize for nothing I done. I didn't recognize nothing I done. I could hurt people and sleep well, and it was not a beautiful thing. That was not life. That was dark enough, but I felt as the person. I realized that I am and wherever I go, I leave. So if I'm in the darkness, nigga, I'm the king of the underworld, but if I, if I choose to fight for justice, nigga, I'm Iron man. They got men there, though I'm paper. Everything I'm bored with with him like this is the nigga I go to war with every day with shit like a, and I trust them and that's it. We talk about this even with business.